An Alarming Morning...

Johnny has been taken to the hospital by ambulance this morning.

I was breastfeeding Johnny when my youngest daughter fell off of the top of her bunk bed. So I jumped out of bed, Johnny in hand and went to comfort her and make sure she was okay. Afterwards I brought Johnny back to my room and sat down in bed with him again and as I looked down at him I saw that he was blue! I sat him up and said his name and tried to move him so that he would breathe. Then I told my husband, who was laying next to me, that he was blue and wasn't breathing and to take him and get him breathing. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to do CPR unless he needed it. He started to breathe again on his own while Daddy had him. He was very limp and sleepy though, and not very responsive, it was so scary!

Then Daddy called 911. We were told to call if the baby stops breathing, even after he is breathing again. The fire department and paramedics came and checked him out and said he looks great. He was back to normal by the time they got here. Then they told us they need to transport him to the hospital to be "observed" (standard stuff).

Daddy rode with him in the ambulance. I am at home. I didn't have time to get dressed, everything happened so fast. Daddy called and said they arrived at the hospital and that he was fine all the way there.

I'm hoping some tests are run, everything is fine and he is released within the next few hours here.

I need to be more mindful of little Johnny's nose when I'm breastfeeding him. His poor little face is so tiny compared to my breasts. I feel so horrible, but at the same time it's sort of setting my mind at ease that he probably only stopped breathing because I smothered him, not because there is something wrong with the way HIS BODY is functioning. I hope that doesn't sound crazy. What I mean to say is that I am hoping that the reason he stopped breathing doesn't have to do with anything being medically wrong with Johnny. Simply that I was not paying enough attention to him (because of my little girl's fall) and that is something that I will make sure never happens to little Johnny again!

That scared the HELL out of me! I'm still shaking. I need to take a shower and calm down because I am going to have to drive soon to go pick up Daddy and Johnny (I hope).

Edited To Add (ETA): My husband just called and the DR has seen Johnny. The DR says that it could have been suffocation or reflux. They want to do a CT scan and possibly keep him over-night for observation. UGH! They're going to call his Pediatrician and decide if they are going to keep him over-night or not. This stinks! :(