I've Now Been Baptized!

My husband baptized me tonight. Someone at church was taking pictures, although I don't know who. There were a lot of bright stage lights shining in my eyes, including the flashing camera(s). Maybe someone will email me some??? Thank you to all those who came for my baptism, and thank you to all those who came for church but stayed for my baptism. Thank you very much to everyone who was there! It was a wonderful experience!

No joke, being baptized is RUSH! You do seriously feel entirely different! I wish I could do that like every night, although in reality, I guess it would lesson the excitement after a while. But, wow! I feel great! I mean on a pain level I've actually got tears, literally I am crying in pain right now, but emotionally, I feel overwhelmingly.... I can't even put it into words, nothing is powerful enough. Jesus is my savior and I am very excited to have symbolized my faith in Christ freeing me of my sins.

As my husband began my baptism, he was in tears. He made a heart-strumming speech professing his love and adoration for me and his faith in our Lord to heal me and guide him to not fail in caring for me. It was beautiful the things he said and very emotionally involving. The kids came up to pray with us afterwards, Pastor Chris lead everyone in prayer.

Tonight our sermon -delivered by Pastor Chris- was about "Worry". It's a 4 part series. Worry is definitely something that I have an issue with. This should be helpful to me. Helpful reminders.

I started worrying about something a little while ago while I was taking a shower. I got to thinking about how my Endocrinologist didn't set an appointment for me. She told me she would call me with my results and we would go from there. Well usually they're pretty booked up, so I got to thinking that it was awfully strange that she would not have me schedule something. I mean how bad off can one be that your Dr finds that you have a hernia and casually throws that statement out at you and moves on to talk about the more "serious" stuff? I did searches online about hernias and they're supposed to be harder to find when you're lying down. She FOUND mine while I was lying down. Also they're supposed to be hard to see or feel if you're overweight and I am totally overweight too! And what the ..... is wrong with me that I hear all that and I don't even flinch? It's like, "Oh, what's one more thing at this point?" But then I remembered our sermon tonight. What good is it going to do me to worry about this? None, it's only going to make it worse. Nothing I can do about it right now, so be it.

I also had this dream before Johnny was born about going to the ER in a lot of pain after the surgery and my guts were protruding through my stomach and I was bleeding like crazy. I remembered that when I was in the shower and I was thinking about the hernia that I have. Was it a premonition? See that, I started to worry again.

I worry a lot. I am starting to catch myself.

When we came home I made a really good dinner.

...And now my poor back is reminding me why I shouldn't try so hard.

I missed my little Johnny something terrible, he stayed home with Grandma. I'm holding him/feeding him as I ponder what all to blog about here. I've been working on this post for at least a couple of hours now.

I think I've hit a block. Time to bust out some photos. =0)