Emotions Ganging Up On Me

My own emotions ganged up on me today. I understand why some people jump out of windows. I'm thankful now that I live on a lower level! In the moment of frustration I first feel like doing something drastic. Once that feeling passes and I've done nothing to relieve myself I feel weak and off balance.

It's sad how the simple things in life can frustrate you so when one by one they are dissolved. I watched "Coal Miner's Daughter" today. Great movie, I highly recommend it. So I was already emotional, then things just seemed to pile up from there.

Yesterday my mom was having problems with her computer, it wouldn't even go to the Window's desktop. This happens to mine a lot too, it sucks. I got it to work again, installed AVG Free for her, ran it, ran AdAware, and left her be. All day today, every time she's seen me, she start talking about all the different files that are corrupted, have been healed, can't be healed, etc. She comes to tell me about them while I'm eating, when my hubby first gets home from work and we're trying to have a conversation, when my daughter asks me a question, any time she feels like it. Finally my husband sees my frustration and offers to help her. I go to the kitchen to make dinner. I tried FIVE times to ask my husband a question about how he wants his food, she kept talking to him right over me. Then she comes in the kitchen and starts making food she wants because what I'm making for dinner doesn't sound good for her. She gets all in my way microwaving food, while I have food on the stove top about burn. Then when I ask my daughter a question, my mom starts talking to me right over her, so I can heat the answer to my question! Then she takes the last of some food that I had thought about having all day as my night time TV snack. UGH Then she goes in her to eat and comes back out as I'm serving my husband his food and tells him about more of her computer problems, as if she expects him to come fix them right then.

I couldn't take it anymore, I broke down and cried again.

I still feel like crying. I'm just sitting here shaking my head from side to side.

"Sometimes bad is bad."