Jealousy

Jealousy. It's a horrible feeling. I think it's one of the worst, if not the very worst.
I feel it from time to time, although I try terribly to fight it.
My oldest daughter almost never feels this. It amazes me.
It's like the emotion just never existed for her. I don't even think she comprehends it when others experience it, which is also very strange because she is such an "empath".
Okay, so by now you're probably wondering what the heck it is I am so jealous about?
Well there are two things I was thinking of actually.
One of them was what someone posted on a pregnancy forum a while back.
One of the girls who had announced her pregnancy was given a gift from her mother. Her mother got her a gift certificate for housekeepers to come clean her house (I think it was for 5 visits). Oh Dear Lord, I could really use some serious help sterilizing my house about now! It's so hard to stoop and bend these days with my ever expanding tummy and swollen legs! No matter how much work I do everyday, I still feel like I didn't get anything I wanted done.
The second is this time I recall taking my youngest little girl to the park when she was just a baby.
There was a man from the neighborhood there with his little baby girl too. We were chit-chatting about little babies and expecting them, etc. He went on to tell me about how his wife's family members had driven down from Denver when she was pregnant to give her a little baby shower and when they were ready to depart they gave his wife the keys and title to their very nice mini-van that they had driven there and politely demanded he drive them to the airport for their scheduled departure flight. When I think of that story I get all teary-eyed. That is the coolest, sweetest thing I ever heard! I am SO totally jealous that things like that don't happen to me! Maybe it's because I don't deserve them? Maybe instead of praying for the material things I want to possess, I should instead pray for the wisdom to find the path that will gain me the merit to deserve these things! Perhaps that is the answer.