I'm Lucky IF

The doctor at the high risk center today says I'm lucky if I make it to 32 weeks. He's pretty confident that I am having this baby taken by C-section within the next few days. He said depending on how my tests come back tonight or tomorrow, he may admit me to the hospital. Not the one I'm registered at either, one much farther away that can take care of a premature baby. They gave me a steroid injection today and I have to go get another one tomorrow to help baby's lungs mature faster. He also said that he wasn't going to bother setting another appointment with me because there is more than a 50% chance I'm getting admitted tomorrow after the test results and if not we may take it day by day. The U/S was really cute and he's still a boy! We got a much cuter view of his face, although he was hiding well. I was hoping for a December baby, I'm terrified about THIS early though. That and I never dreamed I would need a C-section, I'm really scared. I'm so worried about my baby having problems, being kept in a hospital so far away once I am released... all these things making me cry. So much was said. I will try to post more later, but I just needed to spit out the basics of what went down today. Thanks for listening.